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Ace_Lightning
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Name: Ace
Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 9/13/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: Super Smash Brothers Melee. Acoustic Guitar. No Limit Texas Hold 'Em. Anything from the 8-bit days. Political nuts or Economic Geogrophaters.
Expertise: The ladies, of course.
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  xAceLightningx
Member Since:
1/7/2003
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| In extreme times such as these, I wish I had more Degree antiperspirant.
So much all-inning..
Smash was held in governors today. It was pretty good I guess. Not
enough people though. Plus Z and others didn't stay for very long. Come
on guys, show some commitment!
Someone needs to explain this whole "loyalty" thing to me.
Zachary tyler was the most underrated president.
That's about all I have to say for now. You must comment!
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| I guess you could say that I'm pretty aggrivated right now. With
myself, mostly. You guys ever play candy land? Well there's a few
spaces on the board that nobody likes -- when you get stuck and can't
move again until you get a specific color on your turn. I guess you
could say I'm feeling pretty stuck right now. See, it's this girl
(isn't it always, guys?), and you know the story. You're absolutely
crazy about her the moment you see her. And hey, she's available! You'd
do anything just to get this girl to smile for you. You start to think
hey, with a little luck, and some charm, this might just work out. Of
course it doesn't. It doesn't matter how nice you are to her, she's
just not interested. But you stick around, hoping some day she'll "see
the light". But for now, you're just OK with being friends because,
hey, knowing more about each other and spending time together helps
your chances.
But come on, get real. It doesn't work like it does in TV and movies.
Well actually maybe like the nerd in "not another teen movie" that
never ends up with the girl and ends up getting hit by cars and stuff.
So anyway, I'm stuck in the situation. The "friend zone". And to be
honest, it hasn't been so bad. But, it's not going to ever get me
anywhere, and looking back at it now, that's like, high school stuff. I
should have grown out of that at some point. I SHOULD HAVE GROWN OUT OF
THAT AT SOME POINT!!!! I'm now 21 years old, damn it. Acting the same
way for almost eight years now. How much time have I wasted, waiting
around for girls and hoping this perfect one will say yes? The best
times living at college are spent with the girl you love, trust me on
that one. But I've only got maybe a few months left, who knows where
I'm living next year, point being I might be here for only 2 more
months and that's it forever. Out of seven semesters here, having
girlfriends for about two of those and all that other time without, it
just really bothers me. Who cares if they're not the right one for me,
sure I regret some things that happened with Kathleen but most of it
was good times and I sure learned a lot about women in the process. The
other girls, during that time, well it wasn't perfect but it wasn't all
that bad either. I thought I was starting to make some real
changes this year, and "growing up". And I have in some things. But how
many times do I have to tell myself she's not interested before I
actually listen to myself?
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| I'm going boldly into a new direction. Because looking at the results
at what, looking at all of the results, all I've gotten for being this
way has gotten me, I really can't stand it anymore. Living from day to
day always joking around without much of a care in the world, that was
great for when it was, but I need something more. I realize that digs
me somewhat into a bit of a hole, with some people more than others,
but I'd rather try getting out, even if it fails, than to make it
deeper. I'd give anything to be taken away from what I am now. I make
people laugh, but at the end of the day I'm laughed at. I have
everyone's attention but never their respect. I try to stimulate
conversations and make things exciting but someone always ends up
getting hurt and more and more often it's me. I'm a very
people-oriented person. I need other friendships to make it through,
definitely need them more than most other people do. But tearing
everyone else up and being negative isn't going to make that situation
any better. Respect like that is earned. People have a conception as to
the kind of person that I am, so to just say that things are going to
be different, isn't enough. It's time to put up or shut up, and I'm
going for it.
So what does that all mean? Well, if you're used to me acting in a
particular way, and something that I do pisses you off, you probably
won't see it that often anymore. To clarify here though, I'm not going
to be someone that just caters to everyone's mood; this is different. I
don't have to tear other people up to be liked, making a few jokes is a
quick and easy way to get some attention but it's not ultimately
fulfilling. There are some things that I've been putting off for much
too long and I'm going to start doing them instead of doing nothing. If
that means I'm not available to hang out and have fun every night, it's
a risk I'll have to take. Here's one way out there -- I plan not to
play video games as much. They're a fun distraction, but can take up
way too much of my time that could be spent doing more productive
things. I know the instant reaction some of you are thinking, "yeah
right"... well that's exactly it. That image of me in your mind, having
been built up over years of observation -- that's being shattered,
because I really don't like how I'm thought of. There's more thoughts
to be coming for sure, but it's too late at night to be thinking about
them now. Without some rest, none of this is going to be possible.
A last note. I can't do this all on my own (I'm no Superman.) I need
all of your assistance. A lot of the time bad things happen on a
slippery slope. If you guys catch me doing something that I really
shouldn't be doing, call me out on it. It may be early enough to turn
things around and prevent something bad from happening. I truly do love
you all, any who took the time to read this, and know that I don't wish
any harm to come to you from my actions. So help me out if I need
it.
That's all. Check back with me later.
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| Apples to apples is a good game. You just need more than 4 people playing for it to be fun.
Thanks for those of you who showed up and played the full game to test
it out. It has potential to be our new favorite game. We just need more
people next time.
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| A new year is dawning, so I suppose I should post with all this free time I've been having.
And that is to say I really haven't had much free time. I've been
working 40 hour weeks at Toys 'R' Us for the last few weeks and the
money is sure nice, but I don't find myself doing much of anything once
I get home from an eight hour day. Alas....
I'm off this week, so I may post some general thoughts for the upcoming
year. I don't really have much to report on, nothing's really happening
at home and time goes by real fast, so maybe I'll write about things
that are going through my head instead of just some recaps.
I got some great board games for christmas. They really stretch my
brain muscles, and they are really fun, so for that I'm sure I can't
wait til I get back to UB.
But I also like it at home. Things go a little slower. Every meal is
homecooked and tasty. I get to challenge my younger brothers in all
types of skills. While I'm working at home I get tons of cool
promo material so that's always awesome. I definitely got more
nintendo-related stuff than can fit in my room, so maybe I'll have a
decoration or two to give away.
I'm really surprised at how long it's taken for my hair to grow back.
It's been almost two months since "the incident", but it's how it would
look if I just decided to cut it normally short.
I watched the seinfeld episode about the millenium yesterday, and I was
very surprised about how close the "speed dial" part was to my buddy
rankings in my profile. While the egotistical side of me loves the idea
of people competing to be #1, I don't want people to get jealous or
upset either, plus as stupid and little as it is, can cause a lot of
problems. If anyone has a good replacement for my profile, toss me an
idea or two.
Other than Z, I haven't really been keeping up with any of my friends.
How are you guys doing? Leave me a comment or something so I know
you're all still alive.
New years resolutions... hmm. Here's a short list of things that I
really should start doing. 1 first and foremost, DO BETTER AT COLLEGE.
Two A's and Two D's does not equal a balanced semester. Secondly stop
worrying about if this girl or that girl or that other one likes me.
Just be a good friend, and if they like me, I'll figure it out, you
know? Oh. Stop arguing with Meghana so much. Most of the time I'm right
;), but that still doesn't justify the constant back-forward. She
argues with Steve alone enough anyways. Here's a weird one: be more
open to trying new things. I don't want to compromise my beliefs, which
are mostly conservative, but I'd like to be part of my group of friends
that I really don't spend enough time with. I mean, I know the video
game season was amazing this november, quite possibly the best ever,
but that's still no excuse for taking 3 or 4 days and just doing
absolutely nothing. Other than all that stuff life is going pretty well
so I don't need to change much. Gotta get ready for the big party
tonight! And by party I mean 10PM naptime. I'm not really in the
drinking scene and all my friends are at UB so I don't really have any
new year's plans. Doesn't bother me any, I've never really been a big
partier anyway.
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